Sep 2, 2009

my upside down pursuit of passion


This week our Pastor has challenged us to find what our passion is.
He started off by asking: 
"what is your passion"? 
Man, I have never been so stumped! I DO alot of things! I have a like/love/passion for many things.... some I dont even talk about with others (just things my husband knows I enjoy doing)... hobbies I thought maybe could be my true passions???? I dont know! Let's see.....
I love love love down time with my hubby! I love to be with people.. I love to help people achieve victory in their lives, I love to help the hurting, I love to work with youth, I love to make bulks of meals for people to enjoy, I love to bake, I love to take photos, I love to sing out loud (as loud as I can in fact), I love alot of things.... I mean alot of things, then.... there are my dreams; one day to be a stay at home mom raising children, travel the world, go on a mission to rescue children sold into the sex slave industry....Take a whole week and do nothing! You know, just dreams. Lots and lots of dreams but, this one question has really challenged me to find out what my passion is - I want to find it NOW. I dont want to waste anymore time on just functioning, on just maintaining life. I want to make a difference, an impact, know that my life matters for something. This one question has turned my world upside down - WHAT IS MY PASSION ???? Figuring it out is a bit harder than I thought it would be. I mean.... this is deep! What is this thing inside me- this passion? I am trying so hard not to let confusion set in.. especially since I thought i've been functioning in my passion.... but, really maybe I am just functioning! Scary thought!

As I've been searching this out I have really been mediating on it and praying about it because it is an important thing to find out. 
I was reminded a time when Scott preached about passion many years ago and something he said has never ever ever left me.
If you look in the dictionary under passion you can read this: the sufferings of Christ on the cross or His sufferings subsequent to the Last Supper.

Wow! Passion. Christ was passionate about his Love for you and for me.. we meant that much to him that it was his very passion that kept him on the cross for us.

Now, how in the world can I have a passion like that and about what?.... 
What would make me feel so much love, conviction and motivation? What is it that wakes me up in the morning? What is the point of it all??? What Im saying is;
Romans 12:1
1Therefore, I urge you, brothers, in view of God's mercy, to offer your bodies as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing to God—this is your spiritual act of worship. 2Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.

What is it that I am to offer my life for, what is it that is "his good, pleasing and perfect will" for me? 

Think about it for yourself.

I hope that this week you will take some time to figure out what your passion is... it is that passion that the Lord can use through you to propel you into your purpose!

Lots to think about - Tootles!
-Missa

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