Hello Love

Music...

Oh how I love music.

You see, some people have a trigger of a sense of smell. They can smell something and it will take them back in time to a place of being at a loved ones house or in a garden or in another city........ My trigger is music.... I can hear music, especially worship music, and be taken to a place that is so amazing, a place so peaceful and soooo sweet! A place where it is just me and the Lord- he shows me things and renews his precious promises in my life. A place of refreshing. 

Last night Nichole, Jeff, Scott and myself drove to Dallas to go to the Chris Tomlin concert. Nichole is a HUGE fan of Chris' music! We had such an amazing time. 

During the concert, Chris sang one of my favorite songs of all time...... God of this city!

This song is an amazing song of vision and hope and each time I hear it I love it but, something about hearing it right then just spoke to my heart. I just closed my eyes and sang to the Lord. Something about that song, at that place, in that moment in my life lined up and I begin to just feel a renewed and increased vision for AAB (and XYC). Dont get me wrong I have NEVER wanted to give up on aab or anything like that but, It was as if the Lord was unfolding such a bigger picture before me and showing me some of the pieces of how it is going to come together. I have always had a BIG vision for AAB but it was as if the Lord was saying, "why stop there" - "I am so much bigger and my vision is so much greater". 

I dont know how to describe it outside of what I just said! It was sooooo beautiful!

Chris also said something that just rang in my heart and is still ringing loudly.... in the context of talking about vision for the less fortunate he said, "There is no end to the sentence- there is no period". Wow, I begin to think about the day I had on Friday and I thought about it this way;

I was exhausted... yes! I struggle with balance in my timing .... yes! I felt like I was losing my mind...... yes!

But, this vision and this ministry are my babies.... it is who i am created to be, what I am created to do and busyness is the season I am in right now so just like a mother who serves the needs of her children without complaining, sometimes without sleep and even without her sanity -> she does it because that is the calling on her life, her family is her passion. She sees potential in her children, she sees promise and she trusts the Lord for provision from day-to-day. She wakes up and faces the day for what it is, she trusts the Lord with every minute of it. For enough grace when she is discouraged and enough grace when she is tired. She does not bargain with God to remove the calling off of her life, instead she makes a choice to glorify God with all that she is entrusted with.... the lives of those she loves!

So, there I stood surrounded by a ton of strangers realizing.... I can not fully control my purpose and I think up to know I've sort of had it in the back of my head that someday I would call the shots, that someday we would have finished serving in this capacity. That someday life would belong to me and I could call all the shots. I think I may have lost sight of the fact that I am marked.... I have been set apart with a calling and a purpose of the Lord THROUGH my life. I would want nothing more for my life anyway... apart from the ministries he's entrusted me with I would not be happy so...............

In short, I am losing control of losing control :0

Before the concert was over Chris also asked if there were any Pastors in the house raise your hand--- Scott did and then he just said "Thank you for all you do- all the sacrifice- all the unseen, thank you". People around Scott were just shaking his hand and saying thank you and it was just a sweet, sweet moment of release.

So, even though we did not get home until 2am, the purpose of my being there was accomplished.......... I am excited for what is to come.

-Have a great purpose-filled day!

-missa