One big upside to the social networks is that in this year alone I have reconnected with 7 family members that I have not seen or heard from in over 10 years. That part of social networking is great! It has turned out to be a blessing in disguise just yesterday I reconnected with my cousin who I used to really look up to. In my eyes she was the most beautiful person (inside and out) I knew and from what I gather so far she is still faithfully being "herself"!
I do have a twitter acct which I love! You can follow my twitter by reading the right side of this page! I have an XYC myspace and my blog.... I recently deleted my facebook.... I decided that I am really not that interesting of a person so up keep on it was lagging :) And to my dismay, I don't have any friends ;) hehe.
What brings me to all of this revelation is that I have really been praying about budgeting my time (as I have mentioned on here a million times) It is a constant struggle I have in my life because there are many things that HAVE and many things that I WANT to do!
Anyways all of this came to a horrible-screeching hault when I realized I sent a b-day card and called someone who's b-day I had on my calendar (whom I rarely see or talk to) and neglected to do the same for my nephew who recently had a b-day! Oh man..... I could kick myself, especially since my nieces and nephews mean the world to me!!!!!! I was so disappointed in myself because from the outside it looks as though my priorities are all messed up.
Anyways, after sulking and feeling like the scum of the earth, I decided to compose myself and I took it to the Lord........ I need help! God, I really need help!!! And "yes Lord, Its me again and I am having the same issue"! God's grace is amazing, and again I realize....I need to step back again and budget my time according to what He is calling me to do and be. And guess what world. THIS IS IT! This was the turning point for me... this was the low point. This was the straw .... well, you know the saying! I can not keep repenting and getting kicked in the buttocks by the same thing besides, true repentance means change! I never want to be found misusing God's grace.
We leave tomorrow for a conference with our teenagers in Kansas City and I am going to spend the 11 hours in the car getting a head start on Sunday lessons, b-day cards, looking over my personal calendar and moving some things around so that I do not do this again.
By Gods mercy and grace I will have victory in this area! Im going to focus in on finding things in my life that are time wasters and I am going to eliminate them. Then I am going to pray about what to do with the new found time (work out is top on my list). I am also going to schedule regular time for family..... make sure that somehow I see/talk to family each week. I know that sounds silly but, for me it is a constant struggle! And I'm proud of myself for keeping myself accountable in my weak areas! (not to toot my own horn) That's what we should do right? In fact that is in one of my favorite scriptures (acts 20:28). I must at all times keep watch over myself, take my weaknesses to the Lord and ask for his grace and his mercy and receive from him both, correction and direction. Then I must walk it out! Day by day.
All that to say, family and friends: If I forgotten your b-day, anniversary, not called when your sick, neglected a special event or just flat out let you down, forgive me. I love you and I pray for you all the time I just need to get better a picking up the phone or planning a dinner. Whatever it is, it will come to me as I recollect my thoughts, prioritize and restructure my schedule - family and friends you are always in my heart and I have un-intentionally put you on the back burner long enough....
Time wasters...... I will be thinking and praying about this the next few days so please pray for me as I review my calendar for the rest of the year.... yes, it is semi-filled through Jan 2010.
BTW, my blog is one of the social sites I will not give up so dont worry. It keeps me connected to family!
I love you all,
Melissa
Here are some of the latest songs I have been soaking in:
God's people they are—to guard and protect them. God himself thought they were worth dying for!
Wow, how powerful are those 8 last words!
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